| Although I am not a verbose writer, maintaining a blog might be good for me. I have always wanted to write a diary, even though there may be gaps of several weeks or months! This first note kicks off a difficult topic -- one that will be pervasive until resolved.
My Dearest Family and Friends,
Perhaps writing this short note will somehow help me in my attempt to handle my facial pain affliction that began two and a half years ago. I know that I have been "spaced out" for a long time now [insert your joke here!]. I know you have been trying to understand the problem and have been very kind. Thank you for your concerning questions and valuable suggestions.
I have a strange type of Trigeminal Neuralgia (http://www.tna-support.org/newlook/definition.htm). Since November 17, 2003, I have suffered this bizarre, unimaginable pain around my eyes and cheeks. My symptoms involve a constant aching, burning, itching pain on both sides of the face as well as the characteristic TN electric shock sensations. This has been a diagnostic challenge to doctors because of this rare form of TN. The past two and a half years have been a blur -- except for my surprise 40th birthday party and relaxing vacations. It's been loaded with doctors, exams, tests, scans, theories, trials, etc. I've seen the best of the best neurologists and other doctors in Boston. I've received advice from neurosurgeons in Arizona and California. I certainly have maintained an aggressive, and desparate, diagnostic regiment and set of treaments. Did you think I would ever see an acupuncturist!? Last month, I was introduced to a fellow Raytheon employee who had trigeminal neuralgia. He called, and I answered "Hello, this is Jerry Griep." He immediately asked "Do you have trigeminal neuralgia?" I said "Yes." I'll never forget the conversation. He told me of his battle, and how he tried to keep working. It was the first time I talked directly with someone who had the same condition. He had surgery and has been pain-free for three years now. I wish it was that simple for me. Caroline helps me in countless ways. She schedules all my medical appointments. She drives me to every single appointment and test. She mows the lawn and shovels snow. She helps wash the cars and does all those things that I naturally think I can do. Caroline and I are planning to attend a Trigeminal Neuralgia Association Conference this September in Portland, Oregon. Thank you for your thoughts and prayers. Take care of your nerves! Love, Jer | 
